Feel like I'm grasping at straws

[mortensorchid]

Hello forum. I've been silent lately with the hilarious tales that seems to be my search for love lately. Here's an update:

 

I'm online these days, only on EHarmony because I had met one really good guy out there from it. I do happen to believe what the ads say, that this is a website where people can find a real relationship rather than just a one time get together. As for that person mentioned, he was alright but he just never called again so he just wasn't interested for whatever reason. So I'm trying again this way. I am in communication with a few people but none are at the point where we have discussed meeting.

 

One was kind of sporadic communication (weeks would go by before I would hear from him again), and he just called me the other day. I'm not sure if I want to return his call or not. But today I had a funny occurance. I was on Facebook weeks ago and Instant Messeged someone who I thought was someone else (a friend of a friend who I've never met). We were in communication and made some tenative plans to get together at some point. But he never called on the appointed day and I wasn't about to call him, I'd look a little desperate. (Another time when I called someone as we had made a plan to get together one day, he answered his phone and said he screwed up and he was out at a bar with some friends and had no plan to see me that night. I never heard from him again after that.) Today said person from Facebook sent me a text and asked if I wanted to take his dog for a walk on the beach. I said yes and went with him. We had a good low key time, and nothing out of the ordinary happened except that he said I had really pretty eyes and I said thanks. We ended the walk on the beach with a hug and that was that. He said to call him when I was bored. I have a feeling he felt the same way, that he would call me when he was bored enough so I'm not holding my breath.

 

I feel like I'm grasping at straws here. I don't want to give up, I want there to be someone out there for me, but I feel like I'm running out of options or time or whatever the case may be. Does anyone else feel like that? Is anyone else in the same boat as me? I don't know what to do anymore in terms of options or attempts to meet others. When I do, I tend to find losers and psychos. Any suggestions or comments?