bella_123 Posted November 27, 2009 Posted November 27, 2009 (edited) Well, I shall start off with my previous relationship. I have a fairly-good Ex-boyfriend. We were together for 1 year. He left me because of some reasons. However, that doesn't matter. What matters is my current Boyfriend. When I accepted him few months ago, we know each other for only 1 week. I really don't know what I am doing. Perhaps I just need somebody to care for me since my Ex just left me 3 months ago when I first met my current Boyfriend. Everything went well in the first month of my relationship with my current boyfriend but now, everything is in a mess. We quarrel almost every week and each time we quarrel, we would fight. I mean real fighting till I have bruises. I don't know why is this happening. I told him many times I wanted a breakup but every time I said this, he will start to beg me and try to hurt himself. I know I can just ignore but I really can't do it. I feel bad seeing him like this. I really don't what to do. I accepted him many times when I said I want to breakup but I am not happy at all. I am just forcing myself to accept someone who hurts me both mentally and physically. He hurt me so much that I could not live with him anymore. He made me afraid of being in a relationship. He made me feel like being single forever. Please give me some advice. Anyway, there is another guy who I need to talk about too. This guy is my Junior. I know I shouldn't have any feeling for him. However, after an incident happened, I realised how much he meant to him. I am so afraid that something bad will happen to him and I tried to take all the blame so that he would be fine. After that incident, we hugged each other, apologise and console each other though both us don't feel good at all. That night, I have this weird feeling in me. I want to talk to him more and understand him more. And when I never get to talk to him or when he just ignore me in MSN or SMS, I will feel abit sad. Am I really starting to like him? I hope not because I am 2 years older than him and we are senior and junior in a certain CCA in my past secondary school. We shouldn't get together. I am really confused and don't know what to do. I hope some of you will give me advice on what to do. Sorry for my bad language. Edited November 27, 2009 by bella_123
jerseyboy Posted November 27, 2009 Posted November 27, 2009 A guy is physically absuing you and you need to know what to do? See a psychiatrist/therapist to help you understand why you feel this is acceptable, and how you can remedy those delusions.
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