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Old 31st January 2019, 7:31 PM   #61
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Considering how addicted u are, arent u sure ur wife doesnt already know? I think It'd be hard to hide something u di so often right?
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Old 31st January 2019, 8:07 PM   #62
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BTW, I have not picked up my phone once today other than to text with my wife and a couple (male) friends. No inappropriate behavior whatsoever. I know that might not seem impressive, and I know the day isn't over, but I feel like if I can string some days like this together, I can make some progress.
If you were hearing this from a drug addict, would you still encourage them to get professional help to conquer their addiction? Or would you say, "Good job! You've got this!"

Your brain is telling you you need this just like an addict's brain is telling them they need the drug/alcohol/food/gambling..... I think you're going to require professional help to retrain your brain away from buying into this lie (that you need extramarital attention).
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Old 31st January 2019, 9:37 PM   #63
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I'd ask that people stop posting "Tell your wife" or any variations of that. I'm not doing that, so your time is being wasted. That is not helping anyone.

If you want to actually help me make progress on a daily basis and get my head screwed on straight, please feel free to stick around and talk with me. I would appreciate that VERY much.

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1) Examples of posters turning it around like I want to do
2) Any recommended tools/mental exercises to help hold myself accountable
3) Positive comments after I report a "good day"
4) Stories about posters' therapy/counseling that proved helpful in this type of situation
I gave you advice in the form you requested. I've been there and done that and I'm maybe a few years older than you. I could very easily get a woman, get drunk or use drugs. I've turned it around because I decided to grow up, it's not respectable to live like that. What more do you want? A few things-

1) be a man and not a coward

2) grow some balls and give your wife the chance to forgive you

3) if you want a real adrenaline boost then telling your wife will surely give you one

4) own that you've got a problem and stop with the poor me vibe, it truly is pathetic and terribly emasculating.
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Old 1st February 2019, 12:20 AM   #64
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And to all of those who have bashed me, I have NO clue what you get out of this. Does it make you feel better about yourself to insult me? I would ask you to stop it.
The real value of a forum like this lies in its ability to present contrary points of view, forcing you outside your comfort zone, an important part of problem solving. You don't need more "attaboys", I have the feeling you get plenty of those when you look in the mirror each morning.

And if you see suggestions you take responsibility for your actions and treat your wife with respect and consideration as "insults", then you're simply defending the values behind your dysfunction.

You'd do well to at least listen...

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Old 1st February 2019, 6:12 AM   #65
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No such thing...

A man produces a million sperms in one ejaculation, a woman produces one fertile egg per month...a million sperms swimming and competing for 1 egg, and just to fertilize it.

Women produce eggs until they are in their mid 40s, but men continue to be fertile indefinitely, way beyond their 40s..

You are biologically designed to fertilize as many eggs,women as you can, and for as long as you can. Women are designed to select the fittest sperm, genes and for a limited time...

'This' existed for million of years - men invented marriage, dating, conventions in religion and society to tame hypergamy in women and polyandry in men..

There is no such thing as addicted to women, you are just a heterosexual man, enjoy my friend..
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Old 1st February 2019, 6:25 AM   #66
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What a convincing argument. Try telling your wife this when you confess and she will cheer your efforts to populate the globe.
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Old 1st February 2019, 8:59 AM   #67
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A man produces a million sperms in one ejaculation, a woman produces one fertile egg per month...a million sperms swimming and competing for 1 egg, and just to fertilize it.

Women produce eggs until they are in their mid 40s, but men continue to be fertile indefinitely, way beyond their 40s..

You are biologically designed to fertilize as many eggs,women as you can, and for as long as you can. Women are designed to select the fittest sperm, genes and for a limited time...

'This' existed for million of years - men invented marriage, dating, conventions in religion and society to tame hypergamy in women and polyandry in men..

There is no such thing as addicted to women, you are just a heterosexual man, enjoy my friend..
Millions of years ago the human race required all the help it could get to survive disease, hunger, and fighting off predators. With the advent of science, medical knowledge and civilization the need for such behavior is no longer required. If nothing else there should be a focus on population control to ensure the future of the human race.
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Old 1st February 2019, 9:53 AM   #68
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A man produces a million sperms in one ejaculation, a woman produces one fertile egg per month...a million sperms swimming and competing for 1 egg, and just to fertilize it.

Women produce eggs until they are in their mid 40s, but men continue to be fertile indefinitely, way beyond their 40s..

You are biologically designed to fertilize as many eggs,women as you can, and for as long as you can. Women are designed to select the fittest sperm, genes and for a limited time...

'This' existed for million of years - men invented marriage, dating, conventions in religion and society to tame hypergamy in women and polyandry in men..

There is no such thing as addicted to women, you are just a heterosexual man, enjoy my friend..

um, yeah.
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Old 1st February 2019, 10:10 AM   #69
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op,
You recognize you have a problem, and that's great. I haven't ever had issues with addiction ( unless you count smoked salmon), so it's hard to relate, but I'm trying.

I found this article, and while it may not all apply to you, you might still find it helpful. It's not judgemental and was written by a man who sounds lie he was in a place a lot like you are

https://www.thefix.com/content/10-si...ure-sex-addict

There are also lot of counseling services for people who are concerned that they've developed a sex addiction that can "meet" with clients online. That might be helpful to you, and you can do it just about anywhere, even in your car over lunchtime.

There is also Sex Addicts Anonymous . From what I can tell, it's a 12 step program built following the AA model.

https://saa-recovery.org/

Maybe there have meetings where you live?
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Old 1st February 2019, 10:42 AM   #70
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Good Day #1

Good morning, all

I need to jump into work this morning so this will be brief.

Yes, I understand biology and evolution and yes I know that men are fighting against the way we are hard-wired. It's just a fact. It's not even debatable for anyone who understands science. BUT...I won't use that as an out because: 1) I signed up for marriage, no one forced me, and 2) other men are able to prevail over those urges, so it stands to reason that I can too.

To make my goals clear, I want to retrain my brain to keep my sexual interactions limited to my wife and outlets that don't involve other people, either physical or digital. So stroking it to porn = okay. But chatting with women in a chat room, exchanging pics, sexting, etc. = not okay. The chatting would bother her a LOT more than the porn would.

I am looking into counseling sessions, but I have no interest in any program that shares anything with AA. AA is a cult. They literally reprogram people to follow a higher power and give up their autonomy. I've looked at their materials (a friend of mine has drug issues) and it's ridiculous. He went from a logical person, albeit one with drug issues, to a "higher power" following buffoon (who still has drug issues).

But I'm in a positive mood today. It's been almost 48 hours since any chat/app use. I miss one of the women I've chatted with, but that's to be expected. I'll check in later to keep myself accountable. A big thank you to everyone who has chimed in with positive support.
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Old 1st February 2019, 11:17 AM   #71
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I think that I would like you in real life. That confuses me greatly because I have never cheated. I understand that people are attracted to you and that things DEVELOP. I must admit I am super curious to know how your wife would react if she knew about all your shenanigans. I really don't know how to advise you because our principles couldn't be more different. You will obviously protect your own interests, as any rational being would do. In all honesty I think some people should never marry.



Your marriage is a joke. You have failed in your vows. I reckon you should just divorce and enjoy your life. I don't want to judge you but you shouldn't be restricting your wife in a lie. Just divorce and screw everyone then die when you reach the appropriate age.
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Old 1st February 2019, 11:27 AM   #72
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CantGetEnuff,

Congrats on taking the positive step of looking into counseling. I agree with you that you need to find something that is suitable for you, otherwise it won't work.

Something that one of my first therapists told me was, "Support isn't always what you want to hear, sometimes it is what you need to hear."
It helped me to realize that all of the stuff that I was being told, but tried to reject, resist or ignore, or that I judged as too-harsh, or inappropriate or offensive -
- all of what I didn't want to hear needed my most careful attention and self-introspection, because that's where the 'gold nuggets' for my healing lived.
Put another way, if there wasn't anything there, then it wouldn't bother/trigger you to hear it. (If that makes sense?)

Wishing you a happy and successful day.
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Old 1st February 2019, 11:39 AM   #73
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Hi Can't, my comments below are my personal opinion only FWIW.

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Posts I would find helpful...
2) Any recommended tools/mental exercises to help hold myself accountable

<and in a later post>

To make my goals clear, I want to retrain my brain to keep my sexual interactions limited to my wife and outlets that don't involve other people,
Like you, I'm the type that gets a lot of attention from women. Interestingly it's only increased as I've hit middle age. I get plenty of married women with children touching my forearm and shoulder during conversations, and then doing it again a few times until they eventually give up on me. I've never slept with, or even kissed any of them. I *have* enjoyed fun conversations, superficial flirting, and, frankly, the ego boost that this brings.

I think you said it yourself - shouldn't your strategy for dealing with the sexual aspect be masturbation instead of sex? Online porn to replace the online chatting, and fantasizing to replace PAs/extramarital sex? Not a perfect solution, but in your case a major improvement given your goals, no?

Aside from that, I agree with some of the PPs that your issue may ultimately be a self-esteem and/or identity one. This can be subtle, so you may not be fully aware of it. You may feel like your self esteem is "full up" so there's no problem. But consider - what are you doing (all the online chatting, etc) to keep it that way?

There was a time when I started to really crave the social attention I would get from women. It became quite disturbing after a while - it was as if I had a hole in myself that I kept trying to fill with transitory, superficial social interactions. If you're interested I can share what I did to address that issue. Let me know...
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Excellent post, Mark.
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Old 1st February 2019, 12:09 PM   #75
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smi11ie, I might like you in real life too! Who knows? I enjoy interacting with people, and always will. Even at events where I don't know many people, I tend to end up chatting with all sorts of folks. Even making a new friend gives me a bit of a "high," I guess. It's enjoyable.

And to your advice to, "just divorce and screw everyone then die when you reach the appropriate age," 30-year-old me should have done that, before kids entered the picture. But I'm not 30 and childless anymore; I really need to fix this.


Ronni_W, Thanks for the positive thoughts! And yes I hope this is a good day as well. I think it will be. But I'm worried about keeping myself accountable this weekend when it's harder for me to log on here.

And look, I don't even want to hear "get counseling," but I get that I need it. So I'm trying to come to grips that I need some tough love. But I'm not the type that would ever give up his brain to a bunch of cultists. What I really need is for a trained professional to listen to me vent and help me develop positive habits.


Mark Clemson, we sound VERY much alike. Yes, I would love to hear how you addressed your issue, if you're willing to share. And yes, I know that possibly getting myself addicted to porn may not be the optimal strategy, but at least it doesn't involve "cheating" or communicating with other women, so yeah I'm thinking it's the way to go.
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