Its so painful trying to forget but cant forget him now on NC from 3 weeks

[roshni.agarwal]

I am paraplegic girl of 26 years old, i love a guy who proposed me first, promised lot of things and then left me in a middle of nowhere..

he told he loves me and because of his family members he didnt accept me.

then for a couples of time he came back and i accepted him again.

but when the last time he broke up with me it hurt me lot and i decided to deleted him from facebook and there was NC between us but again then he messaged me in my phone when he came to knew that someone in my family was not well... its all long distance relationship..

then there was couple of text we sent each other..

he started reminding me everything we had before and like that before, i was clear to him that i wont come back and i lied that i love someone else which he knew that i was simply lying, then one fine day again i accepted that i love him now also and missed him a lot, this just happened within the fifteen days we started talking again.

then again we have romantic close talks and after that he told me he wants me to be his friends coz anyhow his family members wont accept me.

i dont know what happened to me i started crying over the phone asking that are you leaving me again? and at the same time he also started cry saying i wont leave you, i wont leave you. then we said gud night that's it

then after that night he started sending me friendship message and not talking on text anymore, I asked him what happen? he replied nothing happen,

again and again he sending me forwarded message reminding me as if we are friends and nothing else.. i sent him some cards on courier he text me after getting it he likes it .. i said ok then he didnt reply!

i feel lost again, i am thinking what mistake i have done that he is leaving me again and again. sometimes i feel he love me but when he starts avoiding me i feel like as he never loved me.

I am crying almost every night and i feel i dont want this life because if i was normal girl not disabled then i could have get my true love,

I love him more and i know i cant forget him but i feel i cant be his friends as he asked me for friendship now because i love him... what should i do? please help me!! Its a NC of three weeks and now he stopped messaging also...

[FitChick]

This is all a fantasy. You've never met him so how could he leave you? Since neither of you have any intention of meeting, stop wasting your time. He probably likes the ego boost.

 

There are forums for paraplegics where you can make friends with people in the same situation who are more realistic about the challenges you face. Good luck!