radrluv72 Posted April 3, 2011 Share Posted April 3, 2011 After 13 weeks of NC, I think I've finally accepted that it's over & done with my ex. Yesterday was my ex's birthday. I've read a million posts here of LS about the issue of whether or not to wish an ex a Happy Birthday based on the fact that one has to stop & think about what their expectations are in even doing so. Well, what motivated me was, at first, that for some reason I felt bad about not doing so. But I knew that if I did it, there was probably a very small chance that my ex would respond, given the fact that neither one of us has tried to contact the other during the past 3 months. Against common sense & logic, I pulled my ex up on FB and sent him a message simply saying, just wanted to tell you that I hope you have a happy birthday...that was all. Strangely enough, after I sent it, for some reason I was hoping that he wouldn't respond. All I honestly wanted to do was wish him well, not in effort to open the lines of communication again, but I knew I was still breaking NC nonetheless. Or maybe it was for the purpose of my own ego, just showing that I could still be the bigger person and be polite. I don't know...but even though I had told myself I wouldn't do it, I did it anyway. Well, as it turns out, he didn't respond. So really, my expectations were met. I have to admit that I'm a tiny bit annoyed that there wasn't at least a "thank you", but you know what? Not getting that response, in a strange way, gave me closure. I woke up this morning, feeling ready to genuinely move on. My heart, as much as I fought with it since our breakup 4 months ago, finally accepted that it was over with. I had finally shown myself the difference between the two of us in terms of maturity. I can truly be the bigger person and wish him well. Unfortunately, he can't find it within himself to do the same for me. It's sad and furthermore...it's his loss. So, I took some new pictures of myself for the personals, ready to get invested in meeting someone fabulous and new. I am beautiful, I am kind, I am intelligent, I have a lot of things going for me and he chose to let me go. And that's fine...the love that he turned away, someone else will have. I was the best thing to happen to him, and the day he realizes that, it'll be a sad, sad day. I have myself back again, which is good. I really missed me. Link to post Share on other sites
Thatguyintx Posted April 3, 2011 Share Posted April 3, 2011 I have myself back again, which is good. I really missed me. Make sure to treat you well! And, your avatar...WOW! Very beautiful! Link to post Share on other sites
Author radrluv72 Posted April 3, 2011 Author Share Posted April 3, 2011 Ha...thank you...it's one of the pictures I took of myself today for the personals...liked it so much that I made it my new profile pic on FB & my avatar here as well. I've been here since the breakup, so I figured, what the hell...lol... Of course, I'd be lying if I said that I didn't hope just a teeny bit that my ex would see my new pic and eat his heart out a little. It's the first new picture I've taken of myself since he dumped me...would serve him right to have a bit of a reminder of what he walked away from. Buwahahaha. Link to post Share on other sites
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