Crazy Magnet Posted August 8, 2010 Share Posted August 8, 2010 For whatever reason I decided to google my exH tonight. Why do I do this to myself? I think I'm nuts sometimes. Turns out he has a twitter page that I could see and my stupid self read all his updates. I guess I was hoping to see that he was having some crappy life but it's obvious he is the same and hasn't changed a bit. Every other update was "got a new Iphone" and "got a new house" and "got a new car". Not to mention all the vacations. I know he "gets" all this stuff by dishonest means, like stealing people's credit. Ugh. What an a$$. Regardless, it still makes me sick to my stomach and I've gone and given myself a panic attack. Deep down I'm still terrified he's going to find me and do something else horrible to me. I'm about 3 seconds away from bursting into hysterical tears but I don't want to tell my BF what I've done b/c I'm so ashamed. I know I have been having bouts of insecurity with my BF b/c he wouldn't get rid of his ex (although he finally sent her a get lost forever email this past week) and so I went back to all my old insecure behaviors but really? I thought I was more mentally and emotionally adjusted than this. AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Will I ever be normal again?? Note to self: never google him again. Link to post Share on other sites
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