Sophomore in college and very lonely

[Tuutuu22]

I commute to college and have started the tranfer process today. I was a walk on for the womens lacrosse team and was cut because I was not good enough (after I was told I had a safe spot on the team and handed gear with my name and number on it.) Soon after I was singled out by the coach by being kept out of practice and stayed on a hill doing wall ball. I was made fun of by a strength coach who I looked up to. I tried my best and put my pride on the line. I just started my sophomore year and I try to hang with girls i have become friendly with but I dont connect with many and often wander in my thoughts. They don'y usually invite me either not unless I send a text "What are you guys doing this weekend". I feel so alone, scared and sad. I have a boyfriend here and he also commutes but I will never rely solely on a man. I feel friends are so important. I am in a tough spot because I want to transfer but I'd lose my academic scholarship and possibly my boyfriend but I know I'd possibly gain so much more. Or I could leave and hate the new college. I try not feeling sorry for myself but lately its been very hard. I am lost and don't know what to do