I can't sleep for a few years now

[peace_of_mind]

Hi, my name is Carla and I'm 24.

So, I really need some advise. I'll explain how this all started..

Back in 2003, I finished high-school, and I started studying Design at college. But then I decided I didn't want to do that for the rest of my life, so I changed to Multimedia in the year after, 2004. To me this course had some problems in its structure, I found it a little superficial, easy and I was afraid I wouldn't get a job with it. So in 2005 I decided I wanted to get out, and I came to my hometown, to live with my parents again. We have a University here and since I was so confused about what to study, I shouldn't keep them paying for my confusion, and living at my parents home is a lot cheaper. In 2005 I choose a course that later that year I was informed it would extinguish. It would no longer exist, because it didn't follow some protocol.. Me and my colleagues, we were advised to change to Informatics Engineering because we had a lot of similar subjects, it was in the same department and the change would be automatic. So I agreed. I thought «Ok if I do this, I may have a good job, a good future..» But I wasn't prepared to a engineering course. So now, my parents think I'm in my 4th year at the course, only need one more year to finish, but I'm on my 2nd. I've been in college for 7 years (since 2003), and I'm in the 2nd year. I don't want to tell them, because I know they would feel ashamed and get me out.. And I think, I really need to do this, so I can have a degree.. and so I keep the silence. But all this guilt won't let me sleep at night. I wish I could tell them so I could take this off my chest, but, I'm afraid they would take me out.

I can't sleep, which makes my studies a lot harder. I miss classes.. For about 2, 3 years I have insomnia, some nights I feel I was awake the whole time.

 

Really would appreciate some advise, thanks for your time.

[bubbles5]

See forget ur past its all happened y i am telling u this cos i am also stuck in design course but atleast u took ur guts n get out i am in my last year but badly stuck. Anyways see I think u should explain either ur mom or dad who understands u.Dont keep them into wrong idea bcos if they get to know frm somewhere else it would be more mess. See u took ur guts n did change so many careers n now I suggest stick to one career whether u hate it or love it. Don change n dont think u wont get job n stuff , You will get it its just have a firm decision.You have to have to n have to work very very hard to get any degree so there is no subsitute for hardwork.I would suggest just tell them , bcos if u r mentally not stable u will get more depress n ruin ur career n health dont do that.If u r afraid then tel any of ur sister or brother first n ask them to help u out n telling ur dad or mom.I think they wil get angry first but then they will understand.There are chances to hear things frm them daily basis but dont hide things.They are your parents .Right now they provide u later on u can tell financially u will fix it once u get a job n settle down with career.Dont hide!! good luck!!

[skydiveaddict]

Hi, my name is Carla and I'm 24.

So, I really need some advise. I'll explain how this all started..

Back in 2003, I finished high-school, and I started studying Design at college. But then I decided I didn't want to do that for the rest of my life, so I changed to Multimedia in the year after, 2004. To me this course had some problems in its structure, I found it a little superficial, easy and I was afraid I wouldn't get a job with it. So in 2005 I decided I wanted to get out, and I came to my hometown, to live with my parents again. We have a University here and since I was so confused about what to study, I shouldn't keep them paying for my confusion, and living at my parents home is a lot cheaper. In 2005 I choose a course that later that year I was informed it would extinguish. It would no longer exist, because it didn't follow some protocol.. Me and my colleagues, we were advised to change to Informatics Engineering because we had a lot of similar subjects, it was in the same department and the change would be automatic. So I agreed. I thought «Ok if I do this, I may have a good job, a good future..» But I wasn't prepared to a engineering course. So now, my parents think I'm in my 4th year at the course, only need one more year to finish, but I'm on my 2nd. I've been in college for 7 years (since 2003), and I'm in the 2nd year. I don't want to tell them, because I know they would feel ashamed and get me out.. And I think, I really need to do this, so I can have a degree.. and so I keep the silence. But all this guilt won't let me sleep at night. I wish I could tell them so I could take this off my chest, but, I'm afraid they would take me out.

I can't sleep, which makes my studies a lot harder. I miss classes.. For about 2, 3 years I have insomnia, some nights I feel I was awake the whole time.

 

Really would appreciate some advise, thanks for your time.

 

 

I think should tell your parents. You have nothing to feel guilty about. You're simply trying to decide on your future. They're gonna find out sooner or later anyway. You should also hit up your doc. for some sleeping pills. You cant think straight without good sleep