[uongy]

ey there.ive been a bit of a bad boy.

ok,what has happened recently is that i got with a girl who had a boyfriend.we were in her house sitting on the sofa after a night out clubbing last wk and we just ended up holding hands and kissing.she is not enjoying her relationship and hasnt been for a while but thats no excuse.

now,i went back round there yesterday and we held hands again though we didnt kiss this time.

now from my end,its just a bit of fun and its just kissing and cuddling no strings.i do like her but no way would i have relationship with her and she is fully aware of this.

but thing is i do want a relationship with someone special and im behaving like this because it feels so nice to hold someones hand again and kiss after so long without it.i know what i have done is wrong and if i was thinking proper i wouldnt have let it happen.but for the first time(i stress i have never done this before)i have been selfish in this regard.

i havent felt loved since my ex left over two years ago and it has built up.i have no idea why im feeling this way though im so confused.

i was thinking i need counselling for this because its gripping me and there is no telling what would happen if some girl merely held my hand.HELP!