[Raven1845]

I've always been very secure with myself and have never been the jealous type, but my boyfriend will do things on purpose to get to me. He has even admitted he does things to see what my reaction will be. If we watch a movie, he'll say, "I'd f*** her." Not, "She's attractive," or anything tame like that, but a blatant "I'd f*** her." There is a Tomb Raider poster in my workout room and he looked at it and said, "I'd f*** her." When we go out to dinner, he'll flirt with the waitress. Also, he'll look behind me and keep smiling and then look at me and say, "What?" Eventually, I'll turn around to see what he's looking at. I try not to let it get to me, but my gosh, when he looks and smiles it is at almost EVERY woman. It's getting to a point where my heart starts to sink whenever we're together and a decent looking woman is there, because I know how he's going to react. I'm a former model, and I've always had high self-esteem, but I have never felt more unattractive than when I'm with him. I've never had anyone treat me this way. I never get mad, but get a little teary-eyed after it happens over and over. He tells me I'm just too jealous. I don't see that. I think he's being excessive. I know people look, but does he have to say things like, "I'm young and there are a lot of hot women in the world and I'm going to look at them." Or "I am not going to pay attention to just you when there are so many hot women in the world." I just don't understand how those types of comments can be okay? He's in his twenties, but I feel like I'm with a high schooler. He's breaking my heart (for other reasons as well as this one). Any thoughts?