What the hell am I doing?
Okay I'm only 18 but I know by now that love is more than just a feeling, but the thing's you do for one another.
Ive been with my boyfriend for a year and a bit and to everyone looking, we seem to be perfectly happy, minus the occasional fight (but which relationship doesnt contain fights?). We are now committing ourselves to moving in together by March next year. We were looking at houses and stuff one day but then we had this massive fight a week later, for which I can take much of the blame as I got annoyed at him for no reason after a really hard day at work. I didn't speak to him all night and then most of the next day, being the bitch I am sometimes after a hard day at work. When we finally confronted each other, he then told me he didn't know how he felt about me anymore.
We decided to work things out and really worked through issues we had had in the past. He got with some chick at a party early in our relationship, a childish spin the bottle thing which still hurt me alot. He now tells me he loves me and perhaps the pressure of our jobs is getting to us now.
Everything is just getting on top of me and none of my friends really understand. I'm hurt about him saying he doesnt know how he feels and then saying he does again, of course I'm going to have trust issues now. HELP!!
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