[Mydish1]

Well i've been seeing this girl for about a month, a couple weeks ago she mentioned she'd like to see my design work and visit my workplace. my workplace was nothing exciting, just an office so i said "nah it's just an office." However i did let her see my design work.

Today on campus, i said i had to go to hte library and work on my final proj. I guess she didnt really have anything to do so she said she wanted to see the design process. I nudged it off. me and my friend were working on this proj together so i didnt feel like it would appropriate for her to come.

For LTR i believe it is important to let someone be a part of your life, especially if they want to. But it's declared we're not officially a couple, and aside from her ex or her bf, i dont think they are the problem.

I think it's just me. Im not outrageously successful nor are my projects outstanding, i guess i dont want her to see the not so glamorous parts of my life...guess im afraid of disappointing her.

Today she has hinted an invitation for me to visit her place. I am really happy. But she's such a giver and i feel guilty because im not entirely ready to devote to her. I want to but i guess its hard, especially expressing my feelings.

This is all too strange cause it feels like a LTR but we agreed that it isnt.