[Sweetgirl2]

Well I'm having a big problem trusting any guys! This isn't a recent issue either. It wasn't really bad until my last relationship which lasted 7 1/2 months and was this year. I never went through his things and never had any reason to doubt him, but one day he let me use his computer for some school things and his e-mail account was left up. I didn't look, but the longer I sat there I started to get these feelings that maybe I should check. I contimplated for about 5 minutes or so then I did it. BIG MISTAKE.. I found e-mails from girls on dating sites and and e-mail from a girl who had written back to saying he was waiting in the parking lot for 45 minutes for her. When he came back in the room I confronted him and right away he tried to close it, and I wouldn't let him. I started reading the e-mails to him and I could see he was getting upset, but I continued. I tried to leave and he wouldn't let me and started saying he wasn't doing anything etc.. I let it go, but started questioning him. Once again I caught him in a chat room and stupid little lies. I started checking up on him (which I hated to do) and would talk to him while looking at him through his window. He sat there and lied to me, and once I'd say something he'd turn of his messengers and that type of thing. Anyway enough of that. The problem is that I'm still friends with him and he makes me feel bad sometimes and tells me he loves me and still wants to be with me. This is making it hard for me to move on. I met a great guy about 2 months ago, and things were going great, then BOOM I questioned a few stupid things and now I'm afraid it's going to repeat it's self. I think that I'm holding onto my past relationships and it's not allowing me to move on. Should I quit being friends with my ex's??? I want this relationship to work and I don't know what I should do.. Someone please give me some advice to learning to trust again.