Heart Broken

Nicole

My boyfriend of two years and I recently broke up. The break up was due to my ignorence. You see my boyfriend went to a party with a bunch of girls and a few days later came down with mono. I, not really thinking, began talking to another boy( I guess revenge. I went a couple of places with this boy but never really felt any strong feelings for him. In fact I let him know I still loved my boyfriend and that we were going to try to stay togehter. When my boyfriend got well he began hearing rumors about me and this guy. My boyfriend would not let me explain nor will he believe anything I say. We have now borken up. The breakup is being very hard on me. I sit around thinking about him, crying, and trying to get him back. I am practically begging for his forgiveness. He can't realize I made a mistake and that I want to only be with him. I would do anything to get him back. Do you have any advice on what I should do. I feel as if though i can not live without him, yet he says he hates me. I don't understand how he could turn against me without even hearing my side of things. How do you mend a totaly broken heart? Any suggestions on how to get him back? I need him in my life very badly. Or should I get with the other guy? I really need help and very fast it is really getting me down.