[DacaInaru]

ok.. well i'm trying not to be ticked here but i can't help it.. I've come to the conculsion that its me..

was talking to this guy online.. possibly trying to meet to go out for a date.. we've been talking for a while.. and yes I did go into the i'm not looking for casual sex discussion i'm looking for friends first and see what might happened from there.. I want a real relationship.. we are chatting on cam one day and he tries to show me his privates.. I turn the cam off.. told him that i'm not into that sort of thing..

well.. we had a discussion about why i'm not into that sort of thing and that I want to take things slowly and get to know the person before I get intamate with them...

so today. i'm home babysitting my daughter and dad cause my mom is away for two weeks.. he know i'm home with my daughter and says oh I took a picture of me do you want to see it.. I said sure..

well its a picture of his freaken Winnie.. and I get furious.. I have never been sooooooo insulted and felt so disprespected in my life.. the least he could have done is warned me knowing that my child is in the house.. so I go off on him.. and he tells me that cause he likes me he thinks that I should see him.. yada yada yada.. and that i'm over reacting that i'm an adult and should be fine with his nudity and mines.. what the F'.. I mean do I look like whore?? do I look like some hoe.. or did he not understand my feelings?

I'm floored at the guys that i've been meeting during these last two months of dating both people online and off line.. I'm starting to think its me.. that maybe I look like a slut?? hell.. i'm 180lbs and look like a freaken defalated balloon.. what the heck.. I don't get it.. what is it about me that i'm attracting idiots who want sex.. and young guys who are looking for sex.. I don't understand.. I'm just floor.. completely disappointed and starting to think.. maybe i'm just better off alone..

sigh..

this sucks..