[newbby]

my ex mm is playing games with me, i know he is trying to use every trick in the book to get me back, however last night i experienced a huge crash in confidence and was quite needy (as a friend) with him (on im) i just needed a listening ear and some reassurance.
anyway since then he has blocked me, this seems strange considering his total determination to break me down. i suspect for this reason that it is another game designed to make me feel bad (because i already was) and i think he probably will show up tonight knowing that i will be feeling bad and desperate.
the trouble is i am feeling extremely down and would love somebody to just hold me right now (this may sound pathetic), so he is right about that, damn him.
does anybody have ANYthing at all to say that will help me stay one step ahead of him, apart from the obvious?? i was feeling so strong, and my happiness is not dependent on him, i am down about other things.
also does it sound as tho i am right about this being another tactic?
dont suggest friends round, that is not an option tonight.