I am having a really hard day here.......it's 3 weeks of no contact after a big blow-up with my b/f and NC since. For those of you familiar with any of my posts, my B/f has been in a depression since January, and I just couldn't take it anymore. I was starting to feel more like his "buddy' than his girlfriend and just couldn't handle it. The last contact, I hung up on him because I was ready to lose my cool in a large way, (which I never have done), but the conversation wasn't nice.....I was just soooooooo pi**ed at him. So, he has bought concert tickets since and ordered them through a couple that we always go to concerts with, and hasn't said a word about us to anyone other than a friend of mine that saw him where he works.
He said he was "content", but wasn't doing anything, just staying at home and then asked a million questions about me. WTF is CONTENT!!!! Urhg!
The last contact, he said "well, you can call me too", and I said "Since that is ALL that is going on in this so-called relationship, YOU call, YOU put in the effort, YOU do all the work. I'm tired."
So, he hasn't called and I feel sick. And confused because he hasn't said to this couple we got out with that we are broken up or are we broken up????? Who the heck would know?????? Or maybe he has bought these tickets (the concerts in August) to take someone else. OMG, I feel like crap and my head is spinning around. That was why I lost it on his sorry ass, his behaviour was confusing me to no end and I was hoping it would smarten him up. Thanks for listening. It's just that I am sure I am driving my girlfriends absolutely nuts and I am feeling a little myself.
God.
Hybrid Mode
