[whitewhale]

It must be an old story to all readers of the breaking-up forum. but if I don't write something and if I don't feel support I might go crazy or what not. My already ex-boyfriend, that seemed so in love with me, so caring, even two days ago, has suddenly declared that I am not the love of his life and so he must stop going out with me and seek his soulmate. He's 5 ys younger than me, and seems a bit immature emotionally, but maybe it's me or something. I feel so terrible mostly because I feel so deceived.
he claims to be very religious and so on, but only sticks to the rules he likes I think, because sex wasn't much of a problem and yet now he told me that with the girl he knew would be the one and only he would only sleep after wedding... would that mean that already after two days of going out he knew I wasn't the one? Because that's how fast we went to bed...
I know how it may sound, so to make it even more bizzare - I was a virgin then. And I'm not like 17 or 21. I'm 27. I waited long for the right guy. I was so sure he was the right one.
He kept being convincing. And now he sais he doesn't love, probably never has and we want different things and... I loved him too much! well, that's beyond me. I never showed too much affection, like in public or something. I was just happily in love so I showed it, that's all.
Now I feel like I can never trust a guy again because love and not-love seem sometimes identical? Or was I stupidly blind?