[scaredofloosinghim]

Hi all. I am new to this forum and am glad that I have found it.

My husband and I have been married for almost 20 years. When we met, I was still in highschool and weighed about 98 pounds! Over the years, I have put on weight and am now about 30 pounds over weight. I know that I need to loose the weight, and I have been trying. But, it is not coming off easily. I have an addiction to food, and hate to excericise. But, I have honestly been trying.

My problem right now is that my husband no longer finds me attractive. He says that he still loves me, but wants me to loose weight because that is the only way he will be attracted to me again.

On one hand, I know that I need to loose weight. But, on the other hand, it makes me furious to know that the only way for him to find me attractive again is for me to be thin!! I can't help but wonder if I am sabatoging my weightloss effort myself because of my mixed up emotions.

We honestly have a wonderful marriage except for this one problem. I am so afraid of loosing him!! I know that he looks at other "thin" women and wishes that I looked like they do. I also have a hard time being in the same room as other thin women, because I feel like he is comparing me to them.

It hurts so bad to know that he finds me so ugly. (you can't see the tears running down my face right now, but they are).

Can someone please offer some advice for me? I do not know how to handle this situation. Everytime I try and talk to him about it, he shuts down.

Thank you,

RLC