[lda12124u]

This is my 3rd time posting on here, about the same man. I have so much to say, but it would take too long, so i'll try to break it down a little. I was with a married man, had a baby with him our son will be 1 this Friday. Him and his wife have this relationship where they both see other people, but like everyone says they always go back to the wife, well he has been back with me for 11 months, by the way wife lives in Virginia I live in Massachusetts. So this is my turn, well it was because I put him out Tuesday. We both just recently got cell phones, and he doesn't know how to check his voice mail, so one day i checked it, and heard a message from his wife saying "I just called to say I love you", that is the same thing he says to me when he calls me at work, so i put 2 and 2 together and said well obviously he talking to her again, I asked him to call her, and tell her not to leave messages on his phone like that and that we don't appreciate it, he told me to call her, i said why do i need to call it's ur wife, so he said he didnt want to get in the middle whatever, so i said give me the number, after asking for 1/2 hour he finally gave it to me, so i called and left a message on her cellphone she called back, and when he so nicely and politely asked her not to leave messages she replied with i didnt leave no message, and he then said oh. Then he came to his senses and said "u didn't leave a message saying i just called to tell you i loved you?" and she said oh that was the other day. anyhow while he was on the phone I said and tell her you don't feel the say way, he looked at me while still holding the phone to his mouth and said dont tell me what to say.

After that he was mad at me for 2 days not speaking to me or anything, so i said to him that you are not mad because i listened to ur voicemail you are mad because i heard the message. So i just started thinking about all the things he has done to me"if you read my other post you will know some of them, but here is one, he took me to Virginia to meet his mother and kids, we went for a week vacation, after three days he left me at his mothers house and went back to his wife, his sister drove me 14 hours all the way back to Mass, i was 2 months pregnant and we went down on the Greyhound. So anyway i put him out I still love him yes, but he has a snorting coke problem, and though i don't like it, i put up with it, now i'm finding out that he is using crack, from a friend who's husband is supposedly doing it with him. This friend told me that i should go get him, from the building where he is staying because he is in a rooming house where they is nothing but drugs, and addicts at. So i called him to see how he was, he just yelled at me, and said he is good. I called him again,and he basically told me not to call him unless it has to do with our son and he hung up again, so icalled him back this time he didn't answer, so i checked his voicemail again, there were 3 messages this time, one from his wife yelling and saying that he dont have to come home she aint gonna force him, and that she got rid of her friend like he asked her to and he has another woman. So that is telling me he was talking to his wife about coming home. the other 2 messages were from a woman here she sound like a crackhead saying honey im downstairs if you dont come down in 20 minutes im leaving, the other one said sorry i missed ur call i was in the shower, ill call you back if you dont answer im not coming over. I didnt tell him i listened to his vociemail again, but i asked him if he was seeing someone and first he said he was in the process of finding someone, so i said fine, then before we hung up he said yeah i am, so i told him to have fun with the crackhead,anyhow my sons birthday party is going to be on Saturday,and he will be there, i dont know how to act. everyone is telling me give it a month because he is going down, i was his backbone, but with me gone, i am going to see the true him, and to just let him fall, but i dont want to see him fall he is my sons father. Now he is not speaking to me at all, he is very nasty to me, and i've been nothing but a good woman to him i put him out for a reason he doesnt understand, I'm am tired of being second to his wife who is 14 hours away and still has this control over him. please any advice anyone has good, bad,lectures or anything i will read them all. Thanks in advance