[beautysoul]

Well, tonight he told me to leave, and that when he came back into town he wanted me gone..............It started with me calling him to see how he was, I had just come back from a daytrip to WI, he is out of town on the job. I was happy to talk to him. He didn't seem happy to talk to me........it's because he bought himself a 150 dollar bag for on the road, and a 80 dollar dvd player for his sister, and he knew that I would complain and bitch because it's the first of the month, and all of our bills are due. Now I have no grocery money. He says that he doesn't care, because he should be able to spend what he wants when he wants. I tell him that I am just trying to be responsible with money. We have declared bankruptcy before because of his reckless spending. He is too ignorant to realize that he has a problem, he wants to blame me for everything. So, he says that he is sick of me telling him that he can't spend money, (even though I only tell him that if it's the first of the month, or we're about to go under in the account), and that he thinks that I am speding the money secretly, on God knows what. He fabricated some statement taht I made, I don't even remeber right now because I amm so upset, but I got mad and rose my voice and swore, because I can't get a word in edgewise with him..l..and he tried to say that he wanted me to leave because i yelled and swore aty him. (He does it to me all the time,)So I tell him he's a coward, and I want the real reason he wants me gone, he confesses ............he's tired of coming home to a pigsty, and I don't give him enough love. He pushes me away, I tell him that, and he denies it and turns it back on me.

Let me tell you, I am a full time student with a 3.9 GPA, and a full time mom of two girls, 2 and 4, while he is home twice a mohnth. But, I don't do enough, and if "things don't visibly change" he wants to be done with our marriage. I have nobody to turn to. I am alone, except for my girls and God.