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Yeah, it seems like he has all the freedom to do whatever he likes without you knowing it, and you are put in a situation that the moment you sneeze in your room, he already knows that. That is absolutely not beneficial for your trust. Is this roommate the same roommate you wrote a rant about a couple of days ago?
The fact that you have a trust issue with drinking and temptation, is understandable. The fact that he makes it a bit too much of a habit only naturally set off a few alarm bells. You make the association : drinking + attractive girls = increased likelihood of cheating. The fact that you have complete trust in your bf, does not change the association.
You can only find out, when you actually live together. Carry on, and you will find out. So simple is life.
Forget the ifs, relax some more, and remain positive. If it is meant to be, it will be.
You don't have to be the perfect girlfriend. Right now he is not the perfect boyfriend to you, and if you do have concerns express them. Be constructive about them, and you will come through.
Never say never. Especially in matters of love.
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Doubts are more cruel than the worst of truths. - Molière
The only philosophy which can be responsibly practised in face of despair is the attempt to contemplate all things as they would present themselves from the standpoint of redemption. - Adorno
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