[the_dude]

please dont be cruel to me..

for some time i wanted to break up because ive been kinda bored of my monotonous relationship with my 5 years GF, and i tryed twice, but she wont let me, like i try to scream out the words, but we argue and end up making up. I tryed a couple of more times and i ended up with another girl i knew from my university. We live 2 hours apart and she started traveling a lot, i mean a lot and i kinda got used for a while being a alone, and we trayed to break up and i coudnt do it again, and finally i ended up cheating on her with a good friend of mine.
We broke up and a couple of months later i started goin out with the girl i chated with and honestly, its all bad, we fight a lot and argue a lot and she's quite a bitch. Its been like 8 months since i broke up and my Ex keeps talking to me and i call her and all that but she doesnt know that i cheated on her. I dont plan telling her either becuase after i broke up with her i realized how much a loved her and now i even appreciate her more than before.


honestly i wanted to brake up before cause i wanted to try new things. Im only in my 20's and i wanted to go out with some girls before i conclude that a girl is perfect and i wanna end up with her. I kinda wanna break up with the girl im currently dating becuase she's bipolar or something, everything was perfect when she was only my friend, and she was always happy, and always having fun, but since she's started going out with me, she's the complete opposite. It suks completly. SOmetimes i cant stand her sometimes i really like her. The thing is that in my previous relationship my ex would like talk to me and call me and tell me things all the time, and she expressed her love for me and i did the same towards her. With this girl its like the person i knew before dissapeared and this new thing is in front of me, she is beautiful and all but i just want a girl who appreciates me. This girl is bipolar, sometime she likes me, sometimes she doesnt speak to me.

I dont wanna get back with my EX yet, but i know that she was the perfect girl and i ***ed it all up. I still keep touch with her because i still love her and i still dont know how da hell i cheated on her because ive always thought that cheating is completly wrong and ****ed up. I dont plan to tell her cause she wont forgive me , eeeeeeeeeever.

I just wanna know what someone else would do in my shoes.