Newly divorced. Having big trouble with men.

ifeellow

I have been divorced for one year. During this past year I have had a semi-relationship with two men. They happen to be friends. The first man was a more talking on the phone relationship and seening each other out. We became pretty good friends, but then we slept together. We never saw each other that way again. We still see each other out, but it is very strange the way we kind of act towards each other. We both act weird and really have nothing to say to one another.

Then the friend........ I started talking to his friend on the phone and also seeing him out. But, whenever I saw him out he would ignore me if he was with the first guy. One time he waited for the first guy to come and talk to me and leave the joint before he would come over and talk to me. Once the first guy was out the door, he had no problem hugging me and talking to me. At first this was fine, but now we see each other occasionally in a behind closed doors where noone can see us basis. I don't particularly have feelings for this guy, but I am curious as to why he has never told any of his friends about me, not even the one I had previously dated. Is he embarrassed of me? I see him out all the time with other women. He obviously tells his friends about the other women he sees. He tells me that he doesn't tell them about me because he respects me and don't want to run his mouth about us. But like I said he sees other women and takes them out with his friends.

My question is....Does he treat me this way because of the first guy? (His best friend) I am ultimately upset about this because I feel that he thinks of me as an embarrassment or something. No one has ever treated me this way before. I hate to go out anymore for fear of seeing him with his friends and him ignoring me. I know I should tell him to bugger off, but I suppose that after my divorce I would rather have someone than no one. Even if that someone only talks to me in private. Talk about self-esteem I obviously don't have any. But all your guys out there, please give me some insight into your minds and how they work.