duude...hehe
it is my belief that when you are young, the love you feel tends to be different. It may not be true love but it is a pure love. Your love probably blossomed out of the innocence you had and maybe growing up in a world of full of unneccessary drama you miss that which once was. Many people in adulthood think their love should be like those found in tv shows like BH 90210, Melrose Place...any numerous soap operas. I guess for them, if that's what they need so be it. But you are still at that age where your heart can make a firm decision how it wants to beat. I love innocence...innocence in love...love untainted by dramas where there are no games, no ulterior motives...nothing but love.
So that's what I think you feel. It's not pathetic. Is it pathetic to think of someone and miss their smile, miss how she'd cross her eyes when you look at her to make you laugh, miss how she'd play a jinx game on you and get you 30 times a day...is it pathetic to think about someone and the good times you've had? Sometimes people have to walk different paths, and if they never really betrayed each other, it's not pathetic to remember them.
Yeah, I was thinking of someone when I was saying those things

, and doing so gives me a warm smile everytime and if that's pathetic than I am indeed. But I use the good memories of positive people as rays of hope in my life. You may have lost something with her, but don't give up and lose IT entirely. Tell her what you miss, what you remember and maybe you can be close again...maybe not in that way but friendship is nothing to balk at.
gl