Oh that thing about the psycho guy it happened to me, it's so awkward to read about it! It was the first guy I ever dated and about 2 months later he didnt show up 5 times and then when I begged him for an explanation he sent me mails accusing me of stalking him, like I used to call him instead of him me (he used a phone box).

Why is the reason for that? Like I had gotten the wrong idea about him, that he had never been into me and he couldnt get involved with anyone (?)(But things like being called baby, having all my stuff payed by him and his talking about his childhood, words like "Ill never forget this day, you, this is... oh soooooo magical." It just didnt make sense.

So I felt for the next guy that was nicest to me when I was feeling so stranged about it all. (And he played me, cuz he was married and was not looking for the same as I).

Like I'm afraid now of every man playing me. I'll never dare give anyone a chance. Unless they let me go thru their stuff and papers,etc. etc. every week.

[hurtingandconfused]

Like I'm afraid now of every man playing me. I'll never dare give anyone a chance.

Come on now, not every guy is like them. People like them give good guys a bad name.

Unless they let me go thru their stuff and papers,etc. etc. every week.

And then there would be no trust. No trust = no relationship.

[Believer69]

I understand not wanting to trust again. I have been hurt, not once but twice. I could kick myself for "doing it" twice. How could I let myself get into that situation again...I actualy trusted a man? YES, I did, and although I was hurt, I will do it again and again. (not the getting hurt part) I believe in love, I want it, as does everyone. You can't continually think about the what ifs. Now, I'm not going to lie, I am SO suspicous ALL the time, and I think it makes for a difficult relationship. However, I have been told I'm worth it, and you know what, I am...and so are you. Just becase some A hole did stuff that made you doubt youre judgment dont let them ruin YOUR life, and it is your life. be good to yourself. and be happy, let yourself be happy.