Gay and Having Doubts... Or not?

jode

I'm a bisexual 18 year-old and I've been quietly dating another guy for about three months now. We've got a great talking relationship, and a safe, active sex life. This is the first relationship for both of us, gay or straight, and I credit this guy with bringing me out. Right now though, I'm a little confused...

Sometimes I really care about him, and I'm glad we're going out. Other times I couldnt care less... There's never a time when I dont enjoy being with him, but often I dont feel like we've got anything special. Sometimes I feel like we're more friends than partners.

I'm unsure as to whether these feelings are actually doubt... Is this just residual denial from having come out only a few months ago? Or is it maybe a nagging fear of being discovered? Only my parents know about us, and they've been accepting and supportive. His parents are devoutly Catholic and openly anti-gay, and may not react well.

He's told me that he cares about me deeply, but I cant admit to caring as strongly back (at least not all the time). We've talked about this, and I've made it clear that I feel I'm still experimenting, but I'm having fun with him. Is it also possible that maybe he's just scaring me off with thoughts of a excessively serious relationship?