[can153us]

About 10 months ago I met this girl while at a diner with some friends. I didn’t see it but my friends thought that she liked me or something, iduno. It did kind of look like she had a interest in me but that only lasted for a week.

After that I would call her every once and a while and we would hang out at parties and such but nothing would ever happen beyond a hug when she would leave. During the end of summer we hung out a lot at my friends house, and I had fun every time she was around.

My friends (male and female) loved her, they thought she was cool as hell. Before those few nights I thought she was pretty and little weird…but interesting. But after hanging out with her those nights I realized what a great person she is. She’s funny, smart, warm, and one of the cutest girls I have met. One thing I keep finding my self saying about her is “she’s like nobody else I’ve ever met”.

I haven’t seen her since school started but ill talk to her on the phone ever once and a while. And I am starting to realize that I miss seeing her.

My problem…

Well I get the feeling from her that she sees us as just friends. She hangs out with a lot of “guy friends” and half of them are probably just like me/think about her just like me.

I always end up going for girls that I have been friends with. This is the second time I have fallen for a female friend. The first time it happened I ended up losing her for good.

My dilemma is should I really risk saying how I feel?

Keep in mind that I AM VERY BAD WITH GIRLS. Friends say that “I don’t put myself out there that much” I guess that could be true. I have never had a real girlfriend or been on a actual date. I am very inexperienced in this department but willing to learn for her. I’m not a hermit, just a little unconfident and shy. I few times in the past I tried to tell her how I felt but I drew a blank. I also have this huge feeling of guilt with telling her how I feel, like im some jerk out to make her feel uncomfortable. I am very awkward with girls I actually like but I can atleast be sincere and honest with them.

What’s something simple I could say besides “I like you a lot” so I don’t feel like such a tool? Im 20 not 10, I feel like I could say something else that she hasn’t heard before so she knows im serious. It sounds tacky but I really do think she is something special and she worth every bit of effort I could give.

I know this was a long post so thanks for reading if u did. I could use any help anyone could give me cuz shes making me miserable.