[feelingempty]

Hello everyone,

I'm 44 year old woman met a wonderful guy been with him 5 years and 4 years common law. Being a blended family isn't easy but this takes the cake.

The last 4 years he has been working out of town home on weekends, which has been very hard the last 2 years, communication has broken down the phone wasn't cutting it but we loved each other and made it work. He has a nasty habit of lying from the smallest detail to some whoppers that most women would have left a long time ago. But then again I had my time of jealousy we worked on it but about 6 months ago I caught him with a profile on a few dating sites and him sending letters to younger women to meet him for drinks at the local bar in the town he works in.

Well of course I flipped he denied it at first but I had proof well it was a rough road for a few weeks I forgave him. Last night I had a gut feeling from the way he was acting yesterday and asked him if he was on dating sites again he said no.

Instead he wrote a letter to his ex g/f telling her how much he thinks of her and never found love like hers and wishes things would have worked out for them. Well here I am the fool again and god knows what else went on behind my back. I hung up on him and put the nc in place which i can say I have not stopped crying today.

He sent a short email saying sorry that's it !!! I feel like a idiot I have been so lonely the last few years and now empty in hopes he will call but I must be living in a dream world. I need encouragement to keep the NC in place it's only a matter of time he will want to sell the house and I have no where to go with my kids.