[PinkToes]

I'm having surgery in about a week, and I'll be in the hospital for a few days. I live alone and I'm supposed to have someone stay with me after that. My friends and family will be here as much as necessary, and I'm lucky to have them.

But right now, it sucks that I'm not in a relationship, because I really miss having someone to look after me; someone who knows my habits and knows where everything is in the house; someone who knows what I need without having to ask. Someone who could hold me all night long, and make sure I'm comfortable. For a little while, I want to be taken care of.

I don't feel like this very often, and that's a good thing. But there are definitely times when I don't want to be the one who has to handle everything. I just want to come home and heal and know that everything will be taken care of. This is one of those times, and it's really, really hard right now.