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He wants me back...
So I called my ex last Saturday night to tell him that I was not angry at him anymore and that I had learned some of my faults in the relationship too...he was constantly blaming himself totally, and as much as I wanted that to be the case, I knew my actions had pushed him there. I also wanted him to know that I did love him, because he thought I hated his guts. So I spilled my guts...and he still sounded like he was just unsure of himself in our relationship as he had dissapointed me quite a few times. I asked him to tell me that "he didnt want me anymore and that he wanted to move on with his life, never being together again" and he told me he wasnt ready to say that. We both established that it wasnt fair for him to put me in that kind of situation of waiting for him...so I told him that while I would always love and care for him, I would not be putting my life on standstill with the hopes of us getting back together..I planned to enjoy myself dating many different people and I was going to find love again. He just listened to me talk about that. We hung up and the next morning I went to church and when I came home...I had an email from him. It had asked that once I got the kiddos to bed that I call him, as he would like to talk. So we got ahold of eachother around 8 that night...and we chatted...about the break up and a few other things...and then he said "so what if I asked you to come home, would you?" I told him I wasnt sure about it, but that I had missed him like crazy and wanted to be with him again...but just didnt want to rush his decision as he seemed unsure the night before. He said he had wanted to call me back that night, but that he wanted to really think about it and sleep on it...because he knew it would take a lot to get me back there.
Well, after him explaining to me that he was totally sure that he wanted to be with me and how he had thought about me every waking moment, he missed his family, he thought I was the perfect woman for him...that he would pay anything and even fly here to pack and move me...so I dont have to lift a finger...which I think is fair after everything Ive been through. LOL...So it seems we have both learned something from our break up. There was no cheating involved or abuse. We had a very loving and awesome relationship...but we had a few issues, being away from eachother and starting to mourn the loss really opened our eyes to how good we both had it together and I will be moving back home November 12th...it will be a good Thanksgiving this year!
Peace!!!
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