[Beatnik]

Well the deal is im 17, and I havent had a lot of girlfriends and I pretty much detest the girls in my small town, either because of their stuck-up attitudes or general stupidity. And for a long while I thought I was doomed to be alone, because I've never kept a girlfriend for more than a few weeks. Well I had to go to the mall a town over yesturday (my sister had a pretty nasty run-in with a bottle of crappy hair dye and I had to take her to System Seven to have the purple/grey color removed)

While she was in there I went to buy some shirts at Hot Topic (for those of you who are not familiar with Hot Topic, its a store, usually in malls, that sells a lot of rock merchandise and other assorted things that are not "mainstream") Well I found my shirts and was checking out some stickers when I realized that this really cute redhead was looking at me, so naturally I looked back and smiled. I caught her looking a few time more but I didn't act upon them because she seemed to be in her early 20s and she lived a town or more away from me so I assumed it wouldn't go anywhere anyway. But now I'm thinking that I should have gone for it anyway, you know sometimes you got to just say What the ****!

So I feel this is a huge hurdle overcome for me. I'm going to spend some more time out at the mall and maybe meet another girl who seems to like me and be like me. I also will not hesitate to talk to her like I have in the past. I always felt I was a fairly good-looking guy, maybe I just havent dated much because the girls in my town, for the most part, are not like me at all. Either way I feel really good right now