I have just been hit w/ a bomb

Not sure???

I need to get this out, and I have read all type of problems on this board, so here it goes..

I am currently getting back w/ an ex after a 5 month split, we were together for 2 yrs.. Well broke up after a trip to Europe, and haven't really talked since, till 2 weeks ago.. We ran into each other and we began to talk, and she tells me that when we returned from the trip, she was pregnant... She chose not to have the baby. and she chose not to contact me neither, which has had me in ruins the past couple of weeks..She told her family and they were w/ her for this, when i should have been, I am so upset that she chose not to tell me... Now we are in the process of trying to work things out, I am afraid of her familys outlook on me, I feel horrible that I wasn't there for her, but she never told me, please any advice would help, I don't know what to feel??