[Hurtling]

Ok i cant stop thinking about my ex gf, i love her so much she split with me a few days ago (i have posted on this forum the full story) cant get a response cause its like a bloody book. Sorry for it but i needed to get it all out.

Ime feeling gradually better i have a positive mind set so i guess this is the kind of time it kicks in and makes me feel stronger in myself to cope.

[Hurtling]

http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t166865



please read it i ned your help if you can give me some advice, i am feeling as the days go by that until i actually can show her that i am doing something productive with my life such as getting educated (going to college for i.e and doing a business degree "NEXT year".) that i wont be able to be viable enough for her parents to stop trying to control her, but ime not a fool she if she really did love me wouldnt pay attention to them.

anyway plz read my original post tyvm for your replies... they help! ALOT.

[Geishawhelk]

I hate to break it to you, but you are onto a no brainer here.
I'd really give it up and stop hoping.
It's going to be waaaay too much effort to even get this kick-started, let alone off the ground.
The Thai culture is extremely complicated to a non-Thai person, and trust me - it's going to only make your head explode.

Leave it be, let it go, and move on.

[You'reasian]

Put it behind you. Pick up your hobbies, your life and go forward.

[Hurtling]

Thanks for your replies.. i figured someone would say something like that.. thank you for reading my "book" too! appreciate it..

its wierd but.. i have come to believe that.. although it hurts.. it has given me a huge kick up the butt to do what i got to do in my life.. better my life.. for myself.. for my future.. for my success..

i tell myself now after much contemplation over the last few days that this girl.. i really felt i loved her.. but although i kind of feel numb right now if you knwo what i mean, like i cant feel the pain anymore or at least no where near as i use to. I do know i miss her, her smile her laugh her humour when it was fun and cheery, we had a good laugh together, but i cant help but say that she changed me.. for sure... i am MOST greatful to her even if she doesnt realise it.. and maybe... maybe one day i will get the oportunity to relay that to her.. WHO KNOWS... (i am reinventing myself) slowly i will achieve it.. of where i want to be, who i really want to be.. AND i will do my degree next year, i will achieve what i must. i need to grow from this and evolve from this.. i will.. for myself..... not her.. life is a peculiar thing to me.. strange... i almost feel, like i am touching on a new era in my life, and that the side within me that has always been there, that its finally emerging, simply because.. ime allowing it to.


Thank you ALL for your responses.. i dont see many positive messages on these boards.. but that is my very honest opinion.. of how i feel as i sit her tonight.. typing this to you. I know i can fear no fear of loosing my motivation to change myself, for i will always burden this hurt and i will use IT to help ME.



Eat life or life will eat you!
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