Crap! I had this post all ready to go and my computer messed up. So now I've got to start all over.
At youth conference last month, my friends (Rebecca, Emma, and my sis) and I were waiting around for the pageant to start and I was texting this friend of mine, Joe. He told me that we should go find his two friends that were there also. So we went over to another ward and found the two guys: Danny and Ron. We talked Joe into coming up the next day to youth conference with the assistance of Danny. I told him thanks, and somethin weird happened I can't quite explain and then he went back to wherever he was sitting. I also discovered that he had a really awesome sense of humor (which always gets me...combine that with a nice face and I'm hooked). That was day one.
Day two, he was super quiet. I also saw him sending "I like you" vibes to this other girl once. We all hung out at the lake and Rebecca went off and hung out with Ron. That afternoon, Joe showed up and Rebecca, Ron and I went out and met him. Then we had a lot of fun: playing in the water, pushing each other off of the dock, standing around and talking...all that good stuff. That night there was a dance and Danny danced with that other girl something like three dances. The very last slow dance I asked Danny to dance. He agreed and we had a really good conversation. When the dance was over we thanked each other for the dance and I wandered off in some random direction (although, I'm starting to think I should have continued talking to him even though the song was over). He kind of took a step in a random direction. And kind of stood there pretending to survey the crowd (don't know why...the two guys and that girl were in the same place we'd left them when I asked him to dance), and looking, I don't know the right word...lost?...confused?...unsure?...something like that.
Day three. The last day of youth conference. We all woke up and went out to the parking lot for breakfast and stood around talking. It was really great. Rebecca got Ron and Danny's numbers and took their pictures.
Later that afternoon, after we got home, Rebecca and I went on a walk and she revealed she liked Ron and I said I was interested in Danny, but I didn't know him well enough, so we'd see. Rebecca was really enthusiastic about going to the football games when they started (Joe, Ron, and Danny all play). She called Ron and got his email.
The next day we found Ron and Danny on MySpace (Joe doesn't have a page). Now this is the part that I feel shouldn't even be a big deal, but it is all the same. I friended Danny and Ron. Ron approved me right away. Then Rebecca friended Danny and Ron. Ron approved her right away. So did Danny. Danny didn't approve my friend request until way later AFTER I changed my default picture, my display name, and sent him an email saying "hey, remember me?"
He replied to my message and we had a really friendly conversation emailing each other over myspace. Then I asked about football (he'd told me he played) even though I shouldn't have since something in me said "Don't reply to him, and if you have to reply don't say that." I didn't listen and went ahead and didn't listen on both counts. The reply I received was an arctic blast, so to speak. That too-wise voice in my head told me not to say anything, but I didn't listen. And he hasn't replied. It's been weeks...and he's been on since, I know. I've learned my lesson and all I've done is send him a sticker or two on the sticker app thing. I'm resisting the temptation to send him a comment, another email, or text him. Basically no contact.
I'll be seeing him around, I know, when my friend Rebecca gets back from Idaho, if not before. I don't really know what to do or say next. I've been second-guessing myself and telling myself I imagined it all. And I'm worried I was too forward. I would like objective opinions from complete and total strangers on the whole mess and any advice would be greatly appreciated.
I don't even know how to feel about it.
He acted like he liked me at least as a friend and then I think I botched it.
(That was a joke.)
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