[skibbydibby]

Years ago, I became friends with a girl. We were never best friends, but we were a good pair. I've always cared about her. She's a little more special than most people in my life. About a year ago we pretty much lost touch. We talked rarely , but we would definitely talk. I could still tell her personal things, we could still show a flirty attitude towards each other...but at the same time, we were still not seeing each other as much as I (now) wish we did.


Over the past six months, I've dealt with certain things that have ultimately helped me. These events have been revealing and I feel like I know just a little bit more about myself (to say the least). The thing is, I've realized just how special this person truly is to me.

I've talked to her recently and it doesn't seem like I'm still important to her. she says she would like to see me when I tell her I'd like to see her again, but I've asked her to see me since then and she was busy (very understandable) This made my feelings more obvious. These feelings for her have been repressed, but now are alive, and screaming. For a week or so, they affected my whole day. My chest felt like it was squeezing my heart.

I've had the time to relax and get over the stress of knowing it's possible that we will not be friends again. I tried calling her, but she didn't answer. sadly I don't expect her to call back. Part of me feels that I've made it obvious I want to see her and I shouldn't get too forward. Another part of me thinks that I should try harder to see her. thirdly I feel like I should just wait it out, call her in a few days and see what happens. I will probably follow through on the latter (I don't think I could just give up on her)....by the way, I definitely don't think I'm trying to push her into coming out with me, I've really only told her I wanted to, then asked her one time later on, it's just that I don't understand why she hasn't made an effort to see me if she really does want to (i would think she'd want to after years of sharing fun times)

Has anyone ever been through something like this? I don't know how to read this situation. Honestly, I don't have a very specific question to ask. I just want to know if anyone has any advice at all. anything that could make me see clearly, hurt less, make a better effort...lol i guess thats what advice is.

thanks for any of you responses.