Im feeling really really low today
Well acutally have been for a bit.
I have been working as a receptionist of a small corporation for almost 9 months now. Around February I started to slack off a bit, sorta cutting corners in order to have time to get school applications ready.I know, total bad move.
Anyway things started falling apart, printers ran out of ink, we ran out of paper. It was a total mess. I then realized I couldnt just cruise through work. Unfortunately the damaged had been done. A few weeks later my boss called me into her office.
She told me some people had been complaining about how when I transfered the calls i would say is someone and then turn out to be someone else (sometimes names are hard to hear!). Also, that I need to make sure i get what people ask me to do right because apparently one of the big bosses had asked me to do send something to someone and I sent it to the wrong person. THen, the whole issue with supplies running out...it was just not good.
SO this was a few weeks back and she told me she would be keeping an eye out. Ive been trying extra hard to make sure i get my work done well. And then...That same boss that I sent that one thing wrong had asked me to send him a packaged a few days ago.
I did it but I can hardly understand his writing. When i input it the fedex
website automatically fixed it so i left it that way since it said that
otherwise it may not be able to deliver it.
Anyway he came up to me today and told me that it had gotten sent to the wrong address and that if he told me to do something or send something and I didnt understand his writing or what he wanted, to ask him.
I felt so stupid.
Since my talk to my boss ive felt like im walking on eggshells, trying to not mess up.
Apparently thats not working either. Im afraid that i may lose my job and mostly i just hate the thought that I cant even be a receptionist. What does that say about me???
In a way I want to say that this is just not my type of job (as I am training to be a Psychologist) but at the same time, I really like working where I do, and I hate to feel like I am not capable of being a secretary.
Is what has happened so far grounds for dismissal? Im so paranoid now. I hate feeling like this. My self esteem is getting a beating.
