[Jmina]

Okay that is ALOT to take on board.

I really feel for you, and can relate to how you are feeling.

My girlfriend left me to try guys also - after a year together.

I was head over heels in love with her,very attatched and was completely devastated/shocked the whole shamogle when she came out with "im not ready for us"

as far as i know she hasnt even slept with a guy yet and its been over a year since she wanted to experiment with them.

maybe that was just an excuse but i do know she needs to delve into something to give her some peace of mind about her sexuality.

darling, if you can hear this it will help.

In the end, it is not important who loves you, but who you have loved.

No love has gone unnoticed, or wasted. All love is recorded to the universe, it always has its place.

Your ex loved you in the only way she knew how, and she thought she was doing the right thing. she had to do that to know what to do next. everyone only ever does their best in any situation, even when it seems pretty lousy. Your ex really typed out that stuff on myspace without stopping to think, she wouldve have ignored any intution about doing the wrong thing. it screams insecurity to me also.

you loved and that is what is important.
your past 3 years havnt been a waste. you have lived, loved, had experiences and experience equals knowledge gained, you will have learnt from this and you will grow and gain from this you will get things under your belt - like gifts that you cant get any other way.

trust in yourself, in your life experience, your path and brush off what she has said becaues it doesnt matter who she loves or has loved. that is her own path, her own doing. when you are able to disattatch from her you will feel much more direction and inner peace!

Keep posting
Jmina