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Heartbroken, but hopeful...
Over a year ago, I met a man on an airplane. It was an instant attraction. I live in Las Vegas and he lives in LA. We stayed in touch through email. Several months ago, we began dating. We dated LD for about 3 months. Everything was amazing in the beginning, but our feelings got deeper and deeper for each other. Maybe because we were far apart, we didn't think it could happen, but we got very close, very quickly.
A month ago today, he broke things off. He said the distance is too difficult for him. That he hurts when he hears my voice, when he wants me next to him and I'm not there, when he can't see me, can't smell me, etc. He says he could never open his heart fully to me while I'm so far away. He feels that when the option for me to visit is there, he can only anticipate the misery of when I leave him. We have opposite work schedules that make it hard to visit. It seems as though he can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. All he concentrates on is how he feels NOW.
He says he trusts me and says he's opened up to me more than any woman he can ever remember. He's a very deep, emotional and sensitive person.
I'm having a VERY hard time letting him go. He said when we broke up, he thought he'd feel relieved from the pain, but he only feels worse now.
Friends have told me that they don't think it's over between us. He is such a wonderful man. I want him to be happy, even if it's without me in his life. But, I don't want to hold on hope if this is the end.
Has anyone gone through a similar situation? The hardest part of the breakup is the fact that no one did anything wrong and we both feel VERY deeply for each other. Why can't he just believe in us and give it a chance?
~PR-girl
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