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LDRs are so hard... Is this really worth it?
So, I started dating * at the beginning of January... Well, we started talking more often. We didn't meet until the end of January. We met and had the best time. Then kept this up... and met up on the first week of February. Then problems came. We starting arguing over stuff that we forgot about the next day. We'd break up alot. He'd give me millions of chances. And then more. He's said to me like, "I love you...... You're gorgeous....... I have to see you again....... We keep breaking up, but I keep coming back to you....... So that has to mean something...... I have the feelings, always. They're just repressed.. " I'm crazy about him. I don't know how he feels about me. Even if he tells me all of the time. I can't trust him. I don't know. I just have problems with trusting people. I don't know. We're so perfect together but when we're apart we get crazy. We met up again Thursday (28th). And the night before, we argued and said we didn't want to be with each other. Then we got together the next day and had the best of times.
Here's his story.
He lives with his parents temporarily until he pays for his debt for college. And, his parents pretty much control him right now.
Well, we went out Thursday. He came home and got in trouble. He just didn't talk to me at all on Friday. And now, today. I've been pushing... Friday night. I can't help it. It's just the way I am. I think I'm pushing him even more farther away. But he keeps telling me, you know, he wants to be with me. We just need to be together. When we're apart, you get paranoid and worry to much, etc. It's true.
How can I stop? Right now. We're sortof not talking. I told him to call me. I ended it again, saying I can't do this. It's too hard. We frequently have arguments such as that. And then I said, I can't keep doing this to you. My behavior is awful, or something like that. Well he didn't say anything. Still hasnt. I'm freaking out. I'm paranoid of him leaving... Like, when I was with him. His phone kept ringing off the hook, but, he's been telling me, he's saving his minutes. What's his saving his minutes for? Ive been talking to him through his house phone. But AHHH. I'm just going nuts. I need help.
Is this realy worth it? I mean. I dont know. I want it to be. He said he wants this. I mean, he keeps coming back right? That's proof he wants it. Thursday, he texted me and asked how the trip home was going (3 hr drive), then called me when I was almost home to talk to me... I don't know...
Help.
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