[ryan05]

So it has come to be that a certain someone I work with, have worked with for the past 6 years, is now part of my life in a way I thought not imaginable.

Her and I are two people who share a really tight friendship. We hang out all time during work, outside of work, laugh, dance, joke, and just have a really great time with each other.

Three months ago, things changed durastically.

It started when we were out at a party one evening, both of us drinking, it was late at night. We ended up kissing one another. It was short, it was sweet, but it ended there. Both of us realizing that this was not a good idea. But deep inside me, I enjoyed that kiss more than anyone could imagine. It was one moment of bliss I thought I'd never forget.

The next day for whatever reason, I said to her that maybe things happened for a reason. Crazy things come to light all the time, and I couldn't help but see if she felt the same way I did. I have always thought she was an amazing person; attractive, smart, funny, so enjoyable to be around, and I know she feels the same about me. I didn’t want to forget what happened, even though maybe I should.

A few days later, we went out after work to talk about things over. I was very cautious in what I had to say. We had a great discussion and agreed that we would never let what happened do anything to damage the relationship we had and that everything would be just fine going forward. It was best to put it behind us and move forward.

The next weekend, we were out with friends. It was getting late and people were leaving. She comes to me and asks me to stay and not go like everyone else. So once everyone left, it was just me and her, we go to a restaurant and then eventually back to her house. Things led to me staying over in what turned out to be such an amazing night. We were very passionate towards one another. Things felt so right, even though they might be so wrong.

The following 3 months have been a build up of emotion so powerful in my heart, to describe them would be impossible. We see each other at least once a week, usually ending up with me spending the night with her held tightly in my arms. She invokes the loving man in me where I can’t help but radiate that love towards her. It seems so easy with her. It is so easy with her. The sensations she gives me with just the touch of her hand, or the look of her eye, are so overwhelming I do not forget to this day each and every one of them. To say the least, I, for the past 3 months, have been falling for the lady in a very severe fashion.

Throughout this, even through the ecstasy of this new found relationship between us, we keep asking each other, how? Why? What are we doing? We know this is wrong, but, to us, it just doesn’t matter. There are lots of things that point to us not pursuing this. There is an age difference between us, we work together, I’m recently off a divorce, she plans on moving next year, but when we are together none of it seems to matter.

Last weekend, we took the relationship to the next level and were intimate with each other. It was unbelievable. I longed for that day, but put absolutely zero pressure on the situation. It happened and the experience is one I’ll hold dear to my heart for a long long time.

Things are going very well. However, our relationship has been a secret this whole time. And us sneaking around all the time is something that I’d love to change. So I brought it up to her and asked her what she thought. The response was shocking.

She said to me that this would never work with us being in a relationship. She has given it a lot of thought, and the negatives are too overwhelming. She thinks we are so different, she doesn’t want to be known as the other woman to my marriage, she thinks I’m too young for her, and she doesn’t want it to be known at work that we are together. You see, both of us have been a big part of the company, know a lot of the staff and both are very active in a lot of aspects within the company. It would definitely shock a lot of people. She tells me that this is why it would never work out. It would cause a lot of craziness.

I kind of knew this all along. I knew I was setting my self up with this sort of situation. But I couldn’t help it. Now I’m really stuck as to what I should do. Do I break things off with her, or keep sneaking around. I have thought about this so much and I’m at a loss here. I would even move out of the company as I’ve had an offer for another job that is quite attractive and if that would help I’d do it, but I don’t think that would help this situation anyways.

Sorry for the novel, but I really had to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading.

[TheSwordfish]

The second woman to your wife.... so what you forgot to mention in the story is that you are married?

[Trialbyfire]

Originally Posted by ryan05

I’m recently off a divorce

Okay, now I'm really confused. Are you married or not?

[ryan05]

Originally Posted by TheSwordfish

The second woman to your wife.... so what you forgot to mention in the story is that you are married?

Sorry, not the other woman, I'm divorced. I was divorced before this all happened. She told me she didn't want to be known as the "rebound" woman, which she isn't. It may seem like that to others, however my marriage ended far before we actually did end it. She knows that as well, but thats what she doens't want to have be perceived.

[TheSwordfish]

Chances are everyone at the company knows about this already. People can sense things like this. If it is what it seems to be, I don;t think there is anything wrong with going public. Maybe the sneaking makes it more fun though

[ryan05]

Originally Posted by TheSwordfish

Chances are everyone at the company knows about this already. People can sense things like this. If it is what it seems to be, I don;t think there is anything wrong with going public. Maybe the sneaking makes it more fun though

It's not so much the fact that we'll keep it secret that has me bothered. It actually does make things alot more interesting that way.

Its all the other things she had to say. I have this fear that one day she's just going to say enough is enough and that we should stop. She is a very conservative person, and this for her is way out of her element.

I'd be crushed if she did so, and it just seems inevitable to happen. And I can't stand having that in the back of my head. I think to myself sometimes I should cut it now before I fall deeper for her, and I don't know why I have that train of thought, but I can see myself getting hurt by her in the future.

I keep telling her that nothing matters, age, differences, secret, no secret, I just want to be with her. But in her mind, it seems to me that some of those things do matter.