Lost Love

sunshine

I have come to the understanding that Love can STINK! I have no idea of why people search for somehting that can hurt so much. Okay, here's my situation, I have only have had one love so far in my life and it lasted 5 long years and because of that relationship and I scared to venture into another one so aroung 2 years ago I met a man and we shared a platonic relationship that lasted 1 year then the inevitable took place, we did the deed and it rocked!!! It has been one year since we started having sex but yet we don't want to commit to a full time relationship. Well, to tell you the truth we tried it a couple of times but it didn't work. There has been a lot of sharing in this friendship/partnership and sometime in the past couple of months I have fallen in love. Now here is the problem, I don't want to be in love and I want to get him out of my mind because he wants this frienship to continue without the commitment but I want more. YES, I told him that and he told me that he doesn't see a future with him and I in a realationship sort of way and I can't handle just being his friend it hurts too much. Should I never talk to him again or try to fight these feelings and continue the frienship. I don't know, I just don't know. HELP!!!!