Am I?
I first smoked pot when I was 15 with some "friends." The first time I tried it, I got really, really stoned and felt really sick, so I vowed to never do it again.
Well, that vow was as good as a marriage vow.
I've been a cigarette smoker on and off for quite some years now. I think I first smoked a cig when I was about 12. It wasn't until I was 16-17 or so that I began to "heavily" smoke, taking in several a day.
I never got up to a pack a day, though. Maybe I did it once or twice, but I don't remember that being my norm.
I started smoking pot again when I was almost 17. I vaguely remember toking some puffs between the 15-17 range, but it wasn't until I was almost 17 that I started hitting joints.
For a whole year I was a true pot head. I even carried a small pipe in my purse with a nug, for, you know--"just in case."
Anyway, I stopped when I was 18 because my exbf didn't like it.
I felt pretty ****ty for almost a month afterwards.
On my 19th birthday, a "friend" gave me a stash of some blueberry and a pipe as a present. WTF.
I didn't resist and I ended up smoking it in my new pipe, and I loved it. It wasn't the strongest I had had, but it still got me super stoned. And it smelled nice, too.
So, I started smoking again. A first it was a toke every here and there, then several joints a day, and back to tokes, and I stopped again.
A few months ago, I started again. At first they were just spliffs, then j's, then pipes, and now recently, I have discovered the wonders of blunts.
I tend to stick with joints, though. I guess I like rolling it up.
But I'm to the point where I feel like I have to have at least one in the morning, one in the afternoon, and one at night. I feel like that freaking Sublime song. Before it was regular regular weed, then blueberry, then kush, the chronic, and even some dank.
I am an extremely anxious person by nature. And I also suffer from insomnia. Pot is about the only thing that helps me relax.
And now that I have been hitting more, I have also been writing and drawing more.
I used to love smoking regular cigs, but I've cut down considerably for the sake of my lungs, the doctor says. He does say, though, that smoking weed every now and then is a better alternative to regular cigs or alcohol. But I doubt he'd be saying that if he knew just how much I'm smoking lately.
Last night, for example, I was actually not stoned. And I was talking to someone on the phone, and I didn't even know WTF I was saying half of the time. I feel like . . . such blah when I'm sober. I feel like I NEED it in order to feel relaxed, creative, and well--a little "normal."
Hell, I think I need one right now.
EDIT: I just realized I sound like such a pot head. Am I?
Hybrid Mode
