[littlekitty]

I'm glad you're doing ok BO. Stay strong, keep going. Hugs!!

[bluechocolate]

I could never really understand nor imagine the torment you went through, & still are, and my words always feel so inadequate in these situations.

Hugs, thoughts, prayers, condolences --- all coming your way.

The first thing I thought when I woke up was, by this time I've always been obliterated. Start thursday night, don't stop until monday morning.

And wasn't it good to wake up without a hangover? Not to have that horrible depression & those nuns swimming in your head? Not to have to pace & wait until you can have that first drink & start the whole process over again?

What a hurdle you've passed today! Congratulations!!

[blind_otter]

Originally Posted by bluechocolate

Not to have to pace & wait until you can have that first drink & start the whole process over again?

What a hurdle you've passed today! Congratulations!!

This is what kept me from drinking the most last night! I thought to myself, what would I write to all my supportive friends on LS if I failed myself again? No way. Not going through that. Better to be upset than obliterated and having to answer to you guys.

[littlekitty]

We have our uses!!

[bluechocolate]

Originally Posted by blind_otter

This is what kept me from drinking the most last night! I thought to myself, what would I write to all my supportive friends on LS if I failed myself again? No way. Not going through that. Better to be upset than obliterated and having to answer to you guys.

Ha! You must have been channeling or something yesterday, lots of weird flash backs & free floating anxiety in the air!

And hey - whatever keeps you from drinking!!

[Art_Critic]

Originally Posted by blind_otter

This is what kept me from drinking the most last night! I thought to myself, what would I write to all my supportive friends on LS if I failed myself again? No way. Not going through that. Better to be upset than obliterated and having to answer to you guys.

... it's good that we could be there for you without being there for you.

[Becoming]

Just to let you know you're being remembered. Or is that re-membered?

to you this day. May healing light be the only thing that penetrates you today (unless of course you want an incarnation).

[Becoming]

When I was going through a bad time, I had this tingling sensation, too. I've talked to others who felt it as well. Mine was like someone gently putting an arm around me. It was weird but comforting. It felt like a good kind of (divine?) energy surrounding me. I wish that for you today and the next few.

[blind_otter]

Yeah that's what I'm talking about. It feels unfamiliar. Maybe all the good vibrations from ya'll...

[enki]

Blind Otter, like you, I had to do what was necessary to stay alive. (Full story another time: today is your day, your recognition of your triumph!)

The wonderful support from so many people here has shown how right you were to take the path you did, and please accept sincere congratulations for your courage and integrity. Yes, and strength too: you may not feel strong yet, but just you wait! You'll realise how strong you have been one day, and then your stars really will shine!

You have time on your side. Law students take quite a few years to achieve prominence in their profession. You don't ever have to do anything to embarrass this perverted little worm; but if you ever wish to, you can pick the time and place, and you can decide how to take him to pieces, very slowly or very fast. You are in control! You can plan and fantasise for years if you want to, honing and perfecting in your own imagination how to make this more than a revenge. You can create an artistic masterpiece.

And all the time, you are becoming stronger and stronger.

And what's he doing? Running away from his guilt, because no matter how hard he tries, he will know deep down that he has broken the law, violated every criterion of decency, and prostituted his own intellect to justify his perverted sense of power.

(Rape is about violence, not sex. If someone hits you over the head with a shovel, do we call that gardening?)

Think how good he's going to feel if he ever has to act in a rape trial.

And one day; he'll never know when: one day you just might reappear out of his past, when he's a "respectable" married man in a big law firm. One day he might have to stare full frontal, point blank, into the eyes of the Otter!