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Law School SO!He Confuses Me!!
So I just got back from visiting my guy this past Sunday. We hadn't seen each other since the 4th of July weekend so we were very excited. As some of you know..my guy is in the middle of his second year in law school. It's been a tough time to try to balance out study time and time to communicate with me. We have managed to pull it off for almost 8 months.
This is what gets me.....
Almost every single freakin time AFTER we see each other..he becomes immediately distant. I got back Sunday and I've only spoken to him one time. Today..I haven't heard from him at all..no text no phone call. Now BEFORE we see each other..it's talking several times a day and communicatin through text several times a day. For some of you talking to your SO once every couple of days is normal but for me...it's not.
The one time we did talk was last night and we talked about how I was feeling. I told him that after I see him..it fires me up..it makes me even more attached..I get so mushy and just feel closer to him.
For him..he retracts and withdraws EVERY single time!! I don't get it and it hurts me!! To me I feel like you should be all over each other especially so soon after you've just seen each other.
Anyway..he explains to me that he just has been buckling down on his studies and he really needs to get focused. He said that all he has been doing since I left is studying and doing more studying. I asked him if it was someone else..if he didn't like the way I looked this time..or if the loving wasn't good. He said that it wasn't anyone else but his studies. That it had nothing to do with me. It's getting down to the wire as far as this term ending and he is really concerned about passing. Sometimes I just wonder..Is law school really THAT hard?! He doesn't work a job..so all his for school solely.
He can't make me believe that he studies 8-9 hours out of a day..I don't know.
So he continues to say that there might be somedays that we won't talk and he is just going to get to me when he can. His priority is school and everything else comes second. That's just the way it is. He said he didn't want to hurt me but he wanted to lay it out straight with me.
He tries to reassure me by saying if he flunks out of law school or doesn't do well..I wouldn't be happy with him. He'd be a depressed guy.
I just don't get it you guys. I really don't.
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