[euroxx]

Alright *Deep Breath*

My relationship (been almost a year on and off) ended last week, with a GIANT blow-up fight in a parking lot down the road from my residence which ended in her driving off and leaving me to walk home. It was over petty bull****, her wanting to talk to more people than just me and me being uncomfortable with the guy in which she was talking to (He was interested and she was letting him know it was just a friendship.) Anyway, tons of a little fights loosely related to the same issue kinda led to our demise.

Additional information is that we've throughout the length of our relationship have had a problem with sex. In that when we got together we both said that it wasn't really important to either one of us.. and well... yes it is. We've never really been able to connect sexually, I mean, get things going. One they do get going, it's awesome. She enjoys it and I enjoy it. But the last couple times have been a trainwreck due to mis-communications and health problems.

We talked about getting back together and our relationship a few days ago and kinda saw eye to eye with the whole friends thing, etc and she kinda got why there were so many fights over it. But at the end of the night she stated when asked if she wanted to try again "What if I don't want to?" and then about the sex "What if I don't want it to change?" Then basically said it was, done, finished. Because she and I quote "Thinks we're on different levels and she doesn't think she loves me like I love her because she doesn't want to try again."

When we get together and hang-out it's fantastic. We genuinely enjoy each other and have an amazing time together. Constant fun, laughing, etc. We do things that convey love on a daily basis and we just make each other happy.

Now since the break-up she's been messaging me on FB regularly, asking how my day is going, how I'm feeling, etc. She's had spirts of being sexually flirtatious in some comments and when I hinted that I was going out to see a movie last night with a friend she was overjoyed, like moreso than I've seen her for something in a long time. It's really feeling like she's just wanting a break to me, I know the things she said were so definite, but she's said them before. I just can't shake the feeling that this is more temporary than she is letting on. What do you guys think? (Female perspectives are more than welcome.)