[mybrowneyedgirl]

so things just arent going to work with my H. not from my lack of trying, what i did is just too much for him. i dont blame him. what i did was unforgivable, i deserve it.

for the first time in 15 years im alone. no H, no MM. i take full responsibility. its all my fault and i understand that i am living the consequences of my actions.

but it still hurts. to be alone, when neither of them love me enough to at least care. my H would have, but i believed the MM that he'd never abandon me.

its a terrible, terrible place to be.