[Devil Inside]

Deux...one of the most painful things we can experience is to see someone we care about self destruct. There is an agony involved as we want to be there for them...but we also realize that we pay with our soul.

Being NPD...her is very unlikely of being capable to ever give you what you deserve in any kind of relationship. You know this. You probably cannot help him.

You will have to be strong with your boundaries when interacting with him. He is like a storm cloud. If he is near you things will be dark and stormy...so make sure if you are going to be in his life that you have an umbrella (boundaries).

I'm sorry...this must be painful.

[You'reasian]

Originally Posted by deux ex machina

Even though I know this is really him, it's still very distressing to me.
I loved him greatly, am guily of being a romantic.
I hate that part of myself at the moment.

He stops by. He's drinking, beer. He's also on antidepressants.?

What do you mean by 'this is really him'?
How often does he drink beer?
What kinds of antidepressants is he taking?

Generally speaking, mixing alcohol and anti-depressants can result in:
1. feeling more depressed.
2. increased intoxication.
3. increased side affects from the medication.
4. dangerous side affects.

Ask a doctor or pharmacist for more information.

Originally Posted by deux ex machina

Just in case this is important: he is very thin, and rarely drank before.

I don't believe he had too much to drink, but the way he acted was very bizarre, almost manic.

My question is: even if one doesn't drink a large quantity of alcohol, is drinking while on anti-ds a dangerous thing for him to do?

You say he is very thin. How has his weight changed?

[deux ex machina]

Mea, Devil, and You'reasian -

Thank you for your recent posts.

I shall reply to each soon.


I takes a long time for me process things that are emotional, sometimes.

Like a friend told me once, "You and your delayed reactions!"

Devil, your post triggered an epiphany.

He's coming by this weekend.



I'll update then.

Thanks again to everyone.

x

[Devil Inside]

Originally Posted by deux ex machina

Mea, Devil, and You'reasian -

Thank you for your recent posts.

I shall reply to each soon.


I takes a long time for me process things that are emotional, sometimes.

Like a friend told me once, "You and your delayed reactions!"

Devil, your post triggered an epiphany.

He's coming by this weekend.



I'll update then.

Thanks again to everyone.

x

OK Deux..I will be awaiting your update.

Remember to be loving to yourself first.

[deux ex machina]

Originally Posted by Meaplus3

From what I've read and been told one should not mix Anti-D's and alcohol becuase the alcohol can intensify the affects of the medication. I believe most Anti-D's have this warning label on them.

Mea

I do think it lowers his inhibitions - a lot!

It does seem magnified and intensified, definite.


Thank you for the response, Mea.

[deux ex machina]

Originally Posted by You'reasian

What do you mean by 'this is really him'?

That his facade fades away - it could be related to the inhibition-lowering quality of alcohol + anti-depressants.

How often does he drink beer?

Since we've been apart, I've limited contact significantly, so not sure.

He went off for a while, doing his thing. It was a relief in a lot of ways.

Then he suddenly started coming by again, and the last few times, visibly under the influence.

What kinds of antidepressants is he taking?

He is taking Zoloft.

Generally speaking, mixing alcohol and anti-depressants can result in:
1. feeling more depressed.
2. increased intoxication.
3. increased side affects from the medication.
4. dangerous side affects.

Ask a doctor or pharmacist for more information.

*hugs* That's so thoughtful.

Thanks, You'reasian.

You say he is very thin. How has his weight changed?

He had to have lost at least 20 pounds. And he was already thin.

He's in Machinist territory.

[deux ex machina]

Originally Posted by Devil Inside

OK Deux..I will be awaiting your update.

Remember to be loving to yourself first.

Thanks.

Originally Posted by Devil Inside

Deux...one of the most painful things we can experience is to see someone we care about self destruct. There is an agony involved as we want to be there for them...but we also realize that we pay with our soul.

I am shocked at how much it has taken out of me. I think I can feel my spark coming back...perhaps, it never really left.

He's such a nihilist. I'm the antithesis of that, I love to create.
Never the twain should meet, I guess.

It has left me doubting my own perceptions, the ground is a little shaky.

But I am alive and unharmed.

Being NPD...her is very unlikely of being capable to ever give you what you deserve in any kind of relationship. You know this. You probably cannot help him.

You will have to be strong with your boundaries when interacting with him. He is like a storm cloud. If he is near you things will be dark and stormy...so make sure if you are going to be in his life that you have an umbrella (boundaries).

I'm sorry...this must be painful.

Thank you for the right words at the right time.

I think one of the reasons this got to me enough to post about it, was that I've been steeling myself for him not trying to make any sort of real effort to win me back. Just dealing with that aspect was enough, since it was pretty bad.

So, I didn't even consider that I would have to deal him full-force again.
Not really.

I wasn't prepared for it.

It was pretty overwhelming, seeing him like that...it brought out all of my instincts to care for him. I do realize that what you say is true. He'll either do something about it or he won't.

I kept trying to leave, and he kept saying, "I love you."

So I told him, "Stop."

Then I would walk toward the door, and he would do it again.

"I love you, I'll never stop."

He would act lost, and hang his head.

It was so...staged or something. And I wasn't having it. He wasn't going to be able to do that.

Hard to explain, everything is still fresh.
Sure I'll cry it out later.

I'm not really great at expressing things that are emotional until I've had time to sort it out, somehow.

Not so wonderful at putting anything personal in writing until I've had time to let everything settle.

I am just kind of a deer in the headlights, atm.

Having those boundaries savied me.

I have a feeling he would've seduced me otherwise. Just a feeling a have, like he thought this was his last shot.

You're wonderful.