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Taking Baby Steps But I'm Already In Deep
Glad I found this forum!
I'm pretty new to this but here is my story. He is a married co-worker. When I first saw him I was blown away by my physical attraction to him. He has always felt the same way. Although he has been more direct about it towards me than I have to him. The flirting has gone on for a year and a half. I've recently taken some time off work and during this time we have been exchanging more and more explicit emails and texts.
He is amazed and thrilled at the prospect of getting together. This is giving me such a thrill. I had been teasing him mercilessly for the days before we met up. I made it clear that I expect this to go on for a while. Well, we have to work through every fantasy we have shared and this could take time. He's so excited at this and so am I.
We met a last week. Not for sex. Although we both wish it was. But again I'm enjoying the teasing. It was our first kiss (raunchy not loving). And also the first time we have seen each other since we decided to go ahead with this. We fooled around in the car but that was it.
I have no delusions about this. Cliche I know. But he is 15 years younger than me. He has responsibilities, two small children and a wife he has been with since grade school. I've read all the articles I can find on cheating and unfortunately she has fallen into the role of a 'typical' wife who gets cheated on and he the 'typical' husband who cheats.
We used to talk about how he could fix this but he has absolutely inclination to do this. I'm past thinking about his wife and family. I don't see myself as a threat to their marriage. Another cliche! But I don't want him permanently in my life...he's far to young. He drinks, goes clubbing and womanizes. Not my ideal of a partner. I've also recently met someone (just a cpl of weeks ago) who has relationship potential. We're similar ages and share a lot in common. All that good stuff. Trouble is a came to find out, a couple of days after meeting up with my MM, that sexually it would be hell of an uphill climb to be compatible.
But I'm dying for great sex. The adoration. The stamina. I'm absolutely aching for this.
Sounds simple. I'm sure it's not!
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