[learnfrommymistakes]

Hi
I sort of asked this earlier, and instead of just asking, I rambled. I will do what I need to do, and I know very well each situation is different, but I am just curious as to anyones thoughts.

SITUATION:
I was involved with a separated, then back to wife, then separated and now recently divorced man. It has always been a very difficult long distance, passionate relationship that has rocked my world and also ruined it (not being dramatic) in other ways. More pain than pleasure, but the pleasure outweighs the pain, chicken, egg, vice versa.

ANYWAY, he is single, and he has started dating (or has been all the time, who knows) according to him, he has just started having casual dates with women where he lives. The D was not for me, and he never said he would come to me if they split. He has said he loves me...etc. etc...boo haa haa, yada yada over the years.

My hunch, gut and BIG feeling is that he is already sleeping with others, not just a casual dinner date. I dont trust him. never will.

He made plans, a flight reservation to come see me..even tho he has begun his single man journey, and he is all about the sex for sure.

I realize he lies and I cant trust him, but of course I want to see him. WOULD u risk breaking your heart all over to see your exMM now that he is single, but run the huge risk of it all falling to hell and not seeing him again? I am so torn. BUT I am also not trusting anything he says...ignores serious emails, responds quickly when its about sex or something light, but not when I need a deeper conversation.

Would you be able to just enjoy it, and go wild and have fun one last time, (maybe) and risk the pain again of doing this again...knowing he is not trying to commit to me or date me???

Thoughts are appreciated. I did send him an email saying that if he is involved with someone on any real level, not just dinner dates, that I was not comfortable with this..or if he had feelings for someone else, is sleeping with them, I did not want to be at the center of another threesome or lie. I just cant do it, YUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

thanks so much, I know I sound like a broken record, but after 6 years of knowing him, it just ended in divorce and its all just raw emotion.

thanks
LFMM